Sarassin
Not hidden. Not symbolic.
Simply not always perceived.
This work does not attempt to explain it. It records what occurred when it was encountered directly, and what it required to continue living alongside it.
What was seen. What was lived. Nothing added.
I did not become a mystic. I recognised that I had been perceiving differently from an early age.
What followed was not a search for meaning, but a process of learning to remain functional while encountering what could not be easily explained. These experiences were not symbolic, nor did they present themselves as ideas or beliefs. They occurred directly, often without context, and without regard for whether they could be understood.
Over time, what developed was not a framework, but a capacity to observe without distortion and to continue living without needing resolution.
This work is not offered as teaching. It is a record. Where a philosophical ground is needed, it is Neoplatonic — chosen not as doctrine, but because it most accurately describes what direct experience has consistently shown.
"The most accurate thing I can say about my state of mind at that moment
is that I was not frightened at all."
— Between Two Worlds
190 pages of spiritual memoirs — from a lamp post in East Dulwich to the banks of Lake Titicaca, from the compliance desks of New York to the stone sanctums of Ithaca. A life navigated across two worlds simultaneously. Written not as instruction, but as testimony.
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The pain at that regularity and intensity, sustained over decades, does something to a person's relationship with their own body and with ordinary consciousness. It makes you aware of the instrument in ways that the pain-free are not required to be.
A full spectrum of human states rendered visible, streaming past on a Southeast London street — and I could not believe that nobody else was stopping to stare. Beauty is not decoration. It is data.
The night was not empty. It was extraordinarily full — a whole landscape organised by principles of passage and protocol that most will never know exist. Both worlds are real. The discipline is learning to navigate without losing your footing in either.
There are those for whom reading is not enough. Who require something more direct — a conversation, a sustained course of work, a structured journey undertaken with guidance rather than alone.
Private consultations, guided courses, and the inner circle are available to those for whom the work is serious. The details of each, and how they proceed, live on a separate page — unhurried, without theatre, without the pressure of a price point.
Enter that worldEverything from one place. No detours.